The other day I woke up to lack of water (not too unusual) and the power cut out for about an hour (also not too unusual). Then I was walking home in the middle of the day up my two back alleys when a man came up and tried his best to grope me. I understand that walking home alone past 9pm is risky, but midday, really? I attempted to hit him as best I could while yelling as many vicious things as I could in English. He ran away. I felt defeated and upset but at least a little, I don't really know the word for this, it's not proud, but I did feel like I put up a fight.
This story is my roundabout way of saying that life is the unexpected and our way of dealing with it. With all the planning we do, all our thoughts, all that we hope to be, and all that we try to achieve, there is still that one thing that tends to get in the way: life. I should know this by now - I have been through enough unforeseen circumstances and have heard and read enough to know that the things that test us the most are the things we never really saw coming. Sometimes these things are great - like falling in love. Whoever plans to fall in love?! It just happens and it's a mini-miracle (or a big one depending on the person and the circumstances), but of course there is the flipside where there are the negative things that come and leave their scars on our hearts and souls and whatever makes us breathe and believe.
But how we react initially and in the long run really determines who we are. There are times when we just want to sink into sadness, when there is an overwhelming gulf that threatens to overtake us (and it does), and there are times when our strength prevails and we fight with an endurance inside us we never knew we possessed. I remember so many times just wanting to give up, just thinking that I had fought enough and all I needed now was rest but that for some reason, either problems didn't come or I had more fight in me than I believed. I think that all of us have more fight in us that we think and I think all of us have this desire to be more (whether we actualize it or not...). Life comes and we struggle and we flourish, but always there is us...fighting...surviving...sometimes losing...always learning even if we don't really want to...
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